Today is Groundhog day, and Balzac Billy has apparently seen his shadow. Which means that Spring has Sprung!!! Balzac Billy is the official groundhog of Alberta that determines weather spring is here, or if we have another few months of winter...
I sure hope so, because I don't know how much more of the cold and snow I can handle... Not that it has been all that cold, only -5C ish, which is really not that bad... But the weather has felt so dreary and grey all the time... Which is really doing nothing for my mood... I feel like since we have returned from DC, I have had a hard time. It's funny, because I wasn't the one in a work program, but I did have time off, and I met some really awesome people. And we lived in a really cool, fun, interesting, culturally diverse, politically powerful, and historically rich. And coming back to Calgary has been difficult. I've come back to a minor career crisis, and am in a job that I am really not enjoying. I don't have control over all aspects of my life and I am struggling with it... I can't control everything and this is not in my nature...it is not who I am! I know I keep moaning and whining about this, but I am hoping that I will get it out and be able to focus on the positive. I am not the kind of person who is this negative. I don't really even want to be around myself, but unfortunately I can't escape myself!!! I feel like I am drowning in despair. And I haven't a clue what to do about it.
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